I write, therefore I am
With this variation on a famous statement by the philosopher Descartes, I would like to express that the act of writing about what happens in my life is important to me.
Wednesday, March 22, 2017
Sunday, March 19, 2017
Internet of Women ThingsToday, I went to see the Internet of Women Things exhibition at TETEM art space. I sniffed the ten bottles from Smell Dating that contained a piece of T-shirt worn by someone for three days and rated their attractiveness. Some other woman who did this before me, was quite sure for some of the bottles whether T-shirt inside it was worn by a man or a woman. I noticed that my judgement (attractive, neutral, or unattractive) did match, except in one case, with the highest number of votes as shown to be cast by others. The person with the highest number of attractive votes, was a "27 years old, single, gay, male, smoker, eats everything". He did receive more unattractive votes than neutral votes, which might suggest that some people can smell if a person is gay. There were three persons who got more attractive than neutral and more neutral than unattractive votes. There was also a person with zero attractive votes. Although the instructions on the website says that you should not use a deodorant while wearing the T-shirt, the woman before me immediately said: "She is using my deodorant" when she smelled one of the bottles. Quite weird to intensly smell the T-shirts of some strangers, while it is not done to do this when you meet someone for the first time, at least not very consciously.
I also met with Marina Toeters from by-wire.net, who had just given a small workshop (for children) about how to intergrate LED's into clothing. I told her about Eth:0 and how I met a woman also working on wearable electronics. She showed me some of the things she had brought. I also told her a little about TkkrLab and how we have people solving problems with respect to programming small devices. She also worked on Cliff: the automatized zipper and I shared the idea of using a spiral to open and close a zipper that I had got when looking at it. While biking home, I thought some more about it and I also shared the idea with Annabel.
Autism Spectrum DisorderIn the past months, I tried to find an answer to the question whether I do have autism spectrum disorder (a form of Asperger Syndrome) or that it is caused by a combination of high nonverbal intelligence with normal verbal intelligence (Too Smart for Words), introversion, near-sightedness (The Theory Behind the Nearsighted Geek), and/or family situation (eldest of five born within four years and four months).
For this I did Faux Pas Recognition and Projective Storytelling Cards tests. The Faux Pas Recognition test is a test for adults whether the have a theory of mind. In each faux pas story, you are told something that is known to first actor in the story and then a second actor is introduced who makes a remark that would be offensive with respect to what you know about the first actor. If you feel that the second actor has made an awkward remark, you might have missed that the second actor did not know about the special fact known to you about the first actor. With some of the stories, I felt that the second actor did made an awkward remark, but then I realized my mistake, when an additional question was asked to me about the story. I noticed that I had problems focussing on the story and processing all the details, because it was at the end of the day, and I already had done a lot of talking. That I did not score very well on this test, might be contributed to other factors, like my language processing problems and being slightly exhausted due to my introversion. I do know that do have a theory of mind, because I am quite good at explaining things (like the rules of Go). I know that I am good at judging what the other person is understanding of the problem and finding ways to increase the understanding.
The Projective Storytelling Cards test consists of a number of drawing of all kinds of social situations and you are being asked what is happening. I probably scored low on this test, because I was taking a rather analytic approach. For some of the situations, I could make up a story about what might be happening, but because I did not have any way to verify it, I did not mention it, becuase I wanted to be factual. In some cases I even could think of several situations and with one situation, with father and a child standing around a pregnant woman, I remarked that pregnancy can be over shadowed by many worries. I am sceptical and a divergent thinker, which prompts met to often generate alternative explainations, where others are satisfied with the most obvious answer.
It is true that as a child I did not have many friends, but it also seems that I did not care much, probably because other boys of my age did not share my interests and I was ahead of them with respect to comprehension of science (astronomy, space flight, electronics and such). I was also an easy child, not having any rigid behaviours or limited interest. It is true that I was not much interested in social activities and that I lacked some abilities with respect to this. My uncorrected near-sightedness during the first seven years of my life probably did hinder my development in this area, not being able to see facial expression from more than a few meters away.
It is true that I do not have many friends and that most contacts with friends are organized, but the friendships I have are not superficial. It is also a fact that intelligent people usually have less friends. I am able to build friendships with both men and women. It is true that I have strong daily routines, but that is mainly because I do not want to spend time thinking about these every day matters. It also true that I stick to some strange routines of recording certain events, but that is mainly a means of giving meaning to my life and/or to give me a feeling of achievement. It is true that I am sensitive for artificial smells and tastes (such as alcohol and artificial sweeters) and that I am sensitive for touch. But although these things are often found with people who have autism, they are not characteristics. I also have no problems with sensory overload. I do noticed, that now that I get older, that I have more problems with concentrating when there are a lot of distractions around, but I understand that that happens to all people when they get older. I cannot remember having experienced a typical autistic meltdown, but I have experienced a type of shutdowns, which seem to be different (at least with respect to cause) from autistic shutdowns. There have been moments that I felt so emotional or rational confused, that I did not know how to proceed further, because every move seemed to make things worse. At these times, I just need to be alone to organize my thoughts. If people press me to make a move during such shutdowns, they only make things worse. The best way out is usually giving me the opportunity to write in my diary. It always helps me to write about what I am feeling of thinking, as a way to organize my emotions and thought and take some distance from them.
Although some people think that I am within the spectrum, and then only at the most lowest level of severity, I tend to conclude that I am probably not, because there other factors that could explain behaviours, just like not every nerd is on the spectrum.
Wednesday, March 15, 2017
BookAt 17:55, I received the free book Campus in context written by Peter Timmerman and Gert-Jan Hospers written in Dutch and English published by Stichting Stad en Regio & Studium Generale UT on Friday, November 25, 2016, ISBN:9789082550917 from the University of Twente.
Wednesday, March 8, 2017
Spring dayIt was said that today would be a nice, almost spring like day. After having visited Li-Xia, I went to Gronau, just across the border in Germany, so see if I could find a nice hard plastic 0.5L bottle, but I could not find one. Next I went to TETEM art space. About half way, while I was biking, I took of my coat, because I began to sweat. At TETEM, I had a look at the exhibition AKI Electrique, which was quite interesting. Next I watched the documentary Biohacking: we need an upgrade by Floor Brock and Laura Okkersen.
At 15:03, I bought the book Less Than Zero written by Bret Easton Ellis in English and republished by Pan Macmillan in 2010, ISBN:9780330518888, from bookshop Broekhuis for € 11.95. Around 15:08, I bought my first soft serve ice cream for one Euro.
BookAt 10:19, I bought the book Documenta 11, Platform 5: Austellung | Exhibition: Kurzführer | Short Guide edited by Gerti Fietzek, written in German and English, published by Hatje Cantz Publishers in 2002, ISBN:9783775790871, from charity shop Het Goed for € 1.95.
RainbowJust when I wanted to leave the office, I noticed that the sun was shining while it was still raining. I also noticed that the sun was low at the horizon. I quickly ran over to the otherside of the building to see a complete rainbow (not fully visible from the point I was standing) with a very bright patch just above the horizon. I took the above picture. Later, I went to another side of the building to take another picture of the bright spot at the other end of the rainbow and affirming it was indeed a complete rainbow. This was between 10 to six and six in the afternoon.
Monday, February 27, 2017
BookAt 09:31, I received the book Designer Apartments written by Julio Fajardo, written in English, German, French, and Dutch, published by h.f.ullmann in 2007, translated by Frieda B.K., Ulrike Hanselle, Arnaud Dupin de Beyssat, and Tanja Timmerman from Diseño De Apartamentos written in Spanish, ISBN:9783833123535, which I had bought on Wednesday, February 22, 2017 at 18:23 from BOL.com for € 9.99.
Wednesday, February 22, 2017
SD custom file systemIn the past weeks, I have been experimenting with designing a simple file system to be stored on an SD card, as part of the project to build a webserver on a NodeMCU that could serve this website. I finished a first implementation, which uses a file as a block device. This evening, I checked in a first version on GitHub and experimented with mmc-utils, but not which much success.
Eth0:2017 Wintertoday, I attended Eth0:2017 Winter. When I arrived at a quarter past nine (after having traveling through a village called Stroet when I realized I was on the wrong road and wanted to take a short cut towards the correct road, but got a little lost), most people who attended for the whole weekend, were still asleep. I spend some time reading a book until the Frack space opened around half past ten. During the day, I spend some time working on Webserver on NodeMCU and talked with various people. I talked with man who had developed various configurations of fixed sized PCB's into round shapes. The idea is that PCB's get cheaper when you order in larger quantities. But if all the PCB's are the same, you need to find a way how to connect them all in nice way, without wires going everywhere. I wrote some Python scripts to solve some of these problems. I talked with a woman about wearable electronics based on the LilyPad platform and she showed the various components she had bought. I also did the free soldering project from Frack: A bistable flip-flop with two LEDs and two small potentiometers. It was tested with some almost empty 9V batteries.
The Mating MindThis morning, I finished reading the book The Mating Mind: How Sexual Choice Shaped Human Nature by Geoffrey Miller, which I started reading on November 19, 2016, a few days, after I bought it. My favourite quote from the book taken from section So Why Can't My Boyfriend Communicate? on page 382 is:
BookAt 10:43, I bought the folowwing books from charity shop Het Goed:
Thursday, February 9, 2017
1.5 cm snowYesterday afternoon, it started to snow. At first the snow did not stay, but later more and more stayed. When I biked home from TkkrLab it was snowing. This morning, I measured more than 1.5 cm of snow on the table outside, but the ground was not completely covered with snow, due to the fact that it is still too warm for the snow to stay. For the coming days the forcast is that temperatures will be below zero degrees Celsius, so some of the snow may stay for some days.
BookFor time in a long time, I found some AKI finals catalogues at charity shop Het Goed. From the three that I found, there was one, that I did not have already. I also found some other new art and architecture books. At 16:38, I bought the book AKI Akademie voor Beeldende Kunst: eindexamencatalogus 1997 edited by Bas Könning, Marijke Harmens, Coen Scheen, Sipke Huisman, and Maarten Binnendijk, written in Dutch, published by AKI Akademie voor Beeldende Kunst in 1997, ISBN:9789075522082, for € 2.50.
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